Great Morning world

So this morning I decided to say great morning instead of good morning. The reason being is that God has seen fit to let me share my heart about the issues I had with worship music and live to hae another day after realizing my 3 year stint in the bad attitude jail house. I now feel refreshed. I had a great talk this morning with my mommy about our family. Her side and my fathers. We just talked for about 2 hours on the subject of family and where ours was and why our extended family acts the way it does. Which if any one is from a family of any size then they realize what its like to have family and all the ins and outs from there forward. I love my family nuclear and extended. I have always loved them and always will. I started to cry talking about the different things that have happened with uncles and aunts and how the love seemed lost and the love seemed to grow with them. I have always been some what of a ...extrovert even among my family hahah. And if you have met my family ever you would realize how funny that is! I would like to end this completely overdone excursion into my family life with this link to a Francis Chan video that has had me thinking and laughing for a few days now. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LA_uwWPE6lQ

Worship/Music?

So I have finally decided to admit that my heart has been hardened for about 3 years now. I have intentionally not sang at my college or church very often because I do->..did not enjoy worship music and I chose to let it bother me when people called it worship instead of just saying it was praise. When I first got to Davis I love music. I loved singing I loved the whole idea of it and not only that but I really enjoyed being in the mood to sing and the mood sining put me into. After awhile though I started to feel like it was all fake. Not my religion not my friends not my relationship with God but the music part of it. It is far to easy to use music to touch emotions. That's not to say that I do not have emotions or let myself experience them but...I have blocked out the whole let myself feel all touchy feely with God. There is one song in particular I really despised which had lyrics like I am a friend of Gods. I never really knew if I was God's friend....I don't know how I can be a friend to an Almighty Deity that I chose to worship and I try to base my existence around. But perhaps I am his friend that is far to much to go on right now. I suppose it is time to admit that tonight I had a break through haha.. into my spiritual life. I was watching a Francis Chan video and on it was a link to a Charlie Hall song. Now in all honesty I only went to his video to see his sweet Goatee ha oh my. Anyway as I approached this video with the bearded man I heard him start singing and it was tremendous not like the most amazing song not the most amazing video but it brought me back to God. I actually found God in this song and it put me back on track after a 3 year battle with my hardened heart and my mysterious critical nature of worship music. So after all this pouting whining and dissatisfaction with one form or worship to my God I have found love for him in a new...old expression.